wow! i couldn't have chosen better timing for my monthly friend this time! sandwiched between shannon's wedding and james' visit? yes please!

i turned 26 yesterday, and i don't even care. i'd like to stop aging at this point but i'm not going to be all like "boo, another year." fuck that. mom made me a cake (strawberry per my request!), and some relatives from up north were here for it, which was a nice surprise. auntie sheryl bought me a necklace that said something about families which made me tear up. aw. i love my aunties.

i also got a bit o' money, which will be used for Atlanta, and the BEST PART IS james' presents are still to come! i told him to wait and give them to me next week when i see him. oh, but he let me open one from Amazon, which was a few different things, among them THE GASHLYCRUMB TINIES by Edward Gorey.

a sample:

e is for ernest who choked on a peach
f is for fanny sucked dry by a leech
g is for george smothered under a rug
h is for hector done in by a thug

:D i also got Ponyo on dvd as well as a Ponyo plush!! pictures to come.

this weekend will probably be a lot of little things... or nothing, depending on how these cramps go. i have to get things in order for Atlanta, i need the room to be clean and easily accessible for james, and some other little things. but it's more like me to keep telling myself that and then waiting for Wednesday night to do it all.

plus, my kindle has got me so hypnotized i'll probably end up failing out of school from reading too much. oh the irony!

to-do list:

-laundry
-clean car
-straighten room
-do all my schoolwork (i have a test and a paper due tomorrow)
-figure out how much $ i'll need for Atlanta
-organize the fucking bathroom so peyton's toys aren't all the fuck over the place anymore

i guess that's it. i don't care.

my sister's wedding weekend is officially over. it seems so weird to meticulously plan something for like, 2 years, and it was only for a couple days of madness. well. it's weird how everything revolved around it, too. i kind of just went with it. everyone else made it really important and so i knew it was supposed to be like that and so i made it like that. why does everyone always feel like the day you get married has to be so perfect though? everything has to be just so - all the way down to the last detail - and if something gets screwed up it's a huge deal. how many days in a person's life can you say is like this? i can't think of any.

i did have fun, though. the best part was the time spent with my cousins, i love them. and i wish they lived closer. i was out of my comfort zone a lot, though. i drank far too much at the bachelorette - i don't think i've ever been that drunk before and i can't say i liked it. i also danced A LOT. and i talked a lot. and i wore a lot of clothes i'm not accustomed to. and i spent time with people who are a lot different than me and really enjoyed it, so that's what i mean about the comfort zone. i think all these ventures out of my secure little world is a contributing factor to my easily upset stomach that weekend, but whatever.

james is coming next week! i am looking forward to this in a completely different way. i'm not nervous, i'm just happy and excited. being with him feels comfortable and warm and lovely. it makes me feel at home, even when i'm in England with him.

my birthday is Friday, i'll be 26! my mom is baking me a cake, yay. i think i'll ask for strawberry this year. i also bought myself a birthday present. that's allowed, right? i can't wait to get my kindle. i'm ridiculously excited for it. you'd think i've never read a book before, but i love me a new gadget. and i'll definitely name it because it'll be a personal, good gadget. i won't know what name to give it, though, til it's nestled in my hand.