hey look, it's the last day of May!

have decided to do my Psych paper on bullying. figure it'll be pretty interesting. man, i hope i can keep my GPA up. now that i've made the President's list--not the Dean's list which was my hope, i surpassed that shit--i want to keep it that way. Daytona State sent me a certificate award thing in the post, and cordially invited me to some dinner party where all the smart people sit around discussing the environment with a bunch of scientists! i'm not actually a science major, nor am i much of an environmentalist, nor do it want to sit around with a bunch of smart kids and try to pretend to be smart, so yeah... definitely not gonna RSVP.

i took a nap earlier which is why i'm still up. i NEVER take naps anymore, and i shouldn't have. but i tend to do that when i'm in a bad mood, especially when i've been crying. sleeping it off helped... somewhat. plus, i've slept horrible the last couple weeks. waking up a lot, staying up til nearly 2 on some nights, getting up at 7. not a good cycle!

i may go see Up tomorrow. or Drag Me to Hell. depends on my mood. obviously they are completely different. might be more in the mood for Drag Me to Hell... seeing Up will be depressing without him, i predict.

watched Sunset Boulevard. i loved it, and found it brilliant. quasi out of ten.

i can't believe May is nearly over! but you know what that means--it's almost my birthday again! but, UGH, 25, man. a quarter of a century. alright, i can deal with wrinkles, discovering hair in scary places, i can even deal with spider veins. BUT GREY HAIR. shudder. maybe i'll get really lucky and inherit the never-got-a-grey-hair-in-her-life-even-when-she-was-in-her-coffin from my paternal grandmother. here's to hoping.

went to St. Augustine today! it's the first time i've ever went alone, and it definitely felt different. but still, it beats sitting on my ass with Clementine on my lap. i bought a couple cute things--a nightlight for my room, some chocolate, a handmade bracelet for Eva, a sterling silver handmade bracelet for me, and a little miniature cat thing which opens on top to put things in for my desk at work. i also walked around the fort, something i've never done before since it isn't wheelchair accessible.




watched Imitation of Life last night. it's an older movie with Sandra Dee. i rented it off Netflix sort of by mistake. i had meant to put Harold and Maude on top of my queue and forgotten, and it was the next one on my list. Netflix predicted i would love it though, and i do love me some Sandra Dee so i watched it. but eh. it was waaay too dramatic for my taste. and that sounds weird, because i absolutely LOVE some older movies that happen to be really dramatic. [Whose Afraid of Virginia Woolf, Suddenly Last Summer, Gone With the Wind, etc]. so maybe it wasn't the dramatics i didn't like, just the acting which was second-rate. yes sirree. but i found it interesting nonetheless. it obviously held my attention. butterscotch out of ten.

today sucks ass... sorry, i was going to write in this thing, but meh. i'm gonna go work on my story til i feel sleepy. goodnight.

all of this rain is starting to scare me. i just drove under very bad circumstances and was all worried my car was going to be lost in la-la land or something. at least now, it's starting to let up some, though. thankfully.

i have to leave for class in a moment and i'll find out what i got on test #1. EEPS! i'm all nerved up. i've also decided to do my Psych paper on bullying. i found out Mom did hers on bullying, too! wow, two peas in a pod or what! so she sent me hers and i read it [skimmed it last night].

ergh. my battery is dying. see you all on the flip side.

had my first Psych class last night. twas pretty interesting! i'm glad this is only a six week course. wish i could get them all over with like that. i'm sort of regretting now that i haven't registered for more summer courses. i think i could have handled a couple more online classes or something. ah well. at least i booked my Fall semester pretty well!

i watched The Reader a couple nights ago. it was superb! one of the best films of 08 for me, i think. it was harrowing and bittersweet. i can't stop thinking about it.

i also watched a dud recently: Sunshine. It isn't horrible, but i dunno, sci fi just aint my "thang". i denied this when James said it to me, but now that i think about it, i can't even think of one single sci fi film i really warmed up to. does Star Wars count? i do love Episode V. and yeah, i like some other sci fi. Alien, Sphere [loved Sphere!] Sunshine wasn't even all that bad until the dude with no skin showed up and started knifing people. that was pretty lame. i about had enough by then. and just the last few minutes was just... BORING and vomit inducing.

The Reader, though. see that!

just started reading 1984 by Orwell. can you believe i've never read it before? it pulled me in from nearly the first page, so bleached_decay from Movieforums would be happy to hear that. i need to finish it quicker than i've been reading lately so i can start reading the next Pendragon book by my birthday!

i have cramps. fuck it.

i got a 94 on my Math Exam, and straight A's for the semester! WOOO! i'm feelin' light as a feather for the time being. at least for a week. i get this week off, and then in starts my summer classes. at first i'll only be taking Psychology for Summer A, but it's condensed.

James and i watched Serenity tonight. eh. why does everyone think it's so grand? it's easily "meh" in my opinion. ah well, can't win 'em all. we did watch The Wrestler a few nights ago, which was brilliant and easily a 9 or 10.

i re-watched Anne of Avonlea for the first time in years. i love that movie so much.

at the moment, James and i are working through our depression of not seeing each other. we're doing our best to make things work. sometimes i miss him so much i can barely handle it.

i'm watching Little House on the Praire. what a cheese fest.

Kate Bush - This Womans Work is definitely in my top 5 favorite songs of all time. it's fucking perfect.

woo ee! i've been studying all night, and told myself i wasn't allowed to stop til i reached the halfway point... which i did... about 20 minutes ago. my back hurts now, as does my head. this week. needs. to be. OVER!

Mom and i need to go through old pictures to start organizing the photo album for Mim + Gramps 50th... oh, i know it's going to be a lot of work to squeeze in during my condensced summer semester but i know she'll love it. must get it done, must get it done!

to do:
+fill out financial aid paperwork/master promisarry
+start organizing pictures/buy an album/decor with Mom
+pick up my damn Wal-mart book shelf unless i want $100+ down the drain.
+straighten my room
+finish Maths studies by Wednesday night
+email Psychology teacher about schedule
+transfer all my music onto Clementine

FUN things to do:
+finish reading the Elephant Vanishes
+start a new book
+listen to my Little Earthquakes album
+get caught up on United States of Tara
+start working on latch-hook again