this side of the blue

so. my last entry wasn't exactly your run-of-the-mill Ashley entry. i don't usually talk about political/economical issues... well, anywhere. but that doesn't mean i don't care about the economy, or my country, or my people. it's just hard. it's hard to talk about the depression. i hear about it everywhere. every time i turn on the news they are talking about it. every time i tune in to co-workers chit chat, they are talking about it. every time i talk to Mom about practically anything she somehow finds a way to throw it in. the truth is it really scares me, and it depresses me so much, that my way of dealing with it has been to try to surround myself with the things and the people who make me happiest and try not to think about it. if i lose my job, then i lose my job. what good is worrying gonna do?

but i think i came to my breaking point this week, and i had to spill my feelings out somewhere. that's what this damn blog is for, right?

and NOW i'm going to do a real update! let's see. the highlight of my week was April Fool's day. Mom and i got several people at the office pretty good. Mom brought in the newspaper from April first of last year, and she put it on the counter where Alice always put's the Orlando Sentinel. so several people thumbed through it all day thinking it was the daily paper. it was great! i hope they didn't go sell or buy stocks afterwards. ooops!

i also bought some really juvenile, REALLY fun gifts at Spencer's involving a fart machine with a remote control! good times!

i signed up for my summer classes. i'm packing a lot on, more than i have since i started school. i'm still trying to decide if that was a smart move or not, seeing as the summer semester is so small. for summer A i'm taking General Psychology [i looked the teach up on ratemyprofessor.com and he got rave reviews, so i'm looking forward to it]. and for Summer B i'm taking some American History bullshit class. it was really the only Summer B course i could find available that i need, so... yeah! i'm also taking English II online. dude, my English II teacher's surname is PINKSTON-MCDUFFIE. no joke! James and i had fun with that one.

i haven't watched/read anything all that interesting over the past week. though i did watch a couple Buffy episodes. the Buffster! Faith is a bitch! but yeah, i've been too busy doing research for my paper. i went to the library on Wednesday night and a woman who reminded me of Susan Sarandon helped me locate stuff and shit. so it's good. i hope i get an A!

i actually had a dream the other night involving this really fat guy that was a demon in one of the Buffy episodes i watched recently. only the fat demon dude was actually James, post-bitten by a spider. weird much?

wow, two entries in one day, both super long to boot!