this side of the blue

why haven't i been writing? well, i'll tell ya why. this week has probably been the very worst one i've exerpienced in 2009. and no, nothing horrible has happened! but a lot of shit has been going on, though i don't know if i have the energy to speak of it all, so i'll summarize a few things.

my main concern lies with work-related stuff. i know they are discussing the possibility of lay-offs, or at least pay cuts. either wouldn't be good, but i don't want to lose my job. i've thought it over a lot the past few days, and decided if i did lose my job (gulp), i'd collect unemployment for a year and really knuckle down in school, maybe take four or five classes each semester, including summer. OOH that reminds me, i need to sign up for the summer classes... just signed up for the 09-10 FAFSA program, so hopefully that will go through alright.

i'm so sick of the economy. it's just so depressing. it's been depressing and it feels like it keeps getting worse and worse. how much worse is it going to get? what kills me is the company i work for. though they haven't been able to make pay roll, it isn't fair to lay off people like me. the people at the top will refuse to take pay-cuts, and those are the bastards that SHOULD take the brunt of the drain off pay roll before they start laying off middle-class nobodies such as myself. but they won't. there are a couple lawyers who work in my office, and i have it in good authority that one makes over half a mil a year. and he's eighty fucking seven years old, yet the fucker refuses to retire. greedy fucking bastard. his wife doesn't work, and her health isn't so good. if i were him i'd be spending my last few years with my wife rather than staying at a job, watching people who have the possibilty of losing their homes get laid off while i stick around.

it's just so sickening. this is a real wake up call for me. i'm beginning to realize how corporate america really is. all of us peons should be revolting against this shit. we should be standing up and marching in Washington, screaming "I'M AS MAD AS HELL AND I'M NOT GONNA TAKE IT ANYMORE!!!!"

but we won't.