this side of the blue

i watched Être et Avoir (To Be and To Have) this afternoon. it was such a sweet documentary. the little children were lovely, and so was the teacher. it made even more anxious to finish school and get into a classroom already, but it also makes me feel like i won't be up to snuff. i mean yeah, i think as far as teaching goes i'll be pretty good (hopefully), but i'm not too sure of myself around children. well, i don't plan on teaching really little kids, but i do want to teach younger children at first--maybe 5th grade or somewhere around there--and i haven't had a lot of experience with kids, really. i want to say i could relate to them pretty well but i'm not sure. it's not just that, though. i hope i can handle them okay. it'd be one thing if i only had a kid or two at a time, but a whole classroom! i know from my own school days that it's quite a skill to maintain control over a classroom, yet at the same time not be too uptight of an atmosphere. i won't want to be a Mrs. Crumplebottom or something.

i watched a lot of stuff this weekend... well, a few things. lots of TV. a few episodes of 30 Rock (which was pretty good), Fat Actress, Soap, and a handful of South Park season 8. i also watched Synecdoche, New York - eh. i've got some laundry done just now, and i'm trying to sort through my clothes and only wear what i won't bring with me on vacation so i won't have to do anymore laundry at the last minute. i hate packing. it's a pain in the ass.

i'm very anxious to see what my grade is for my Psych paper. i won't know til Wednesday, though. EEEP. i hope i get an A in the class. i got all A's on every test with the exception of one, so as long as i got an A on my paper and do well on the final exam i should... i think.